When u feel on top of the clouds

PROJECT WORK IS OVER!
AND THIS IS WHAT WE CALL LIBERATION.
Honestly, i'll be happy enough to score a B. But if i don't, forget it man.
I'll just enjoy life for now.

My back condition have shown slight improvement.. at least i could do a groin stretch with some pain of course and i hope my condition improves real fast. Gotta start with conditioning tmr so that my muscles won't be completely limp when i start training. :)
My legs are begging for me to run but for the sake of my back injury, i'll compromise so please hurry recover. Ok im communicating to my body parts now. Ignore me.

I just watched My sister's Keeper. It was awfully touching and tears seemed to have overwhelmed me. I should be counting be blessings really..

I got the below from minmin's tumblr:

When you don’t make the cut, think of how lucky you were to be able to try; there are kids in parts of the world who are worrying about what they will eat for dinner let alone making a team.

When you don’t get the new shoes you want, think of how blessed you are to have feet to put shoes on; there are people all over the world who would give anything to be able to walk again.

When your parents won’t let you go out to a party, think of how lucky you are to have parents who care; there are kids all over the world who would give anything to have their parents love them or to have parents at all.

When you think life can’t get any worse for you, think of the poor, the hungry, the homeless, the lonely, the widowers, the military and army at war (and all people fighting and dying for our country), the parents of missing children and the families going through Christmas for the first year without a loved one; just remember how blessed you are to still be here.

So try to make someone’s day a little better with a kind hi or hello. You never know what anyone else is going through, and sometimes it might just make you thankful for what you have.

I think theres a great deal of stuff waiting for me to embark on tmr and yeah i should get some sleep.

This is awfully adorable. ;D

Endure for one more day

Because tomorrow I can finally bid goodbye to hell.

i feel like singing, screaming, shouting & shake off that bout of languish surrounding me! I need to burn i need to burnburnburn! How am i supposed to do so with a cranky back like this?
im crazy today. i ate 2bars of chocolate and fell right asleep after each bar. Are they sedatives??? O_O
& im going to eat my new fav grilled chicken from breeks tmr. Ok i think i shall share with oily sis. I can't eat so much without exercise. Im determined to shed off those pounds. i can i can i can i can do it :)

I realllly want to go back for training. How long more must i wait? when would injuries ever stop coming? I miss that adrenaline rush and the shiokness my legs and heart would feel after an accomplishing 200mX6. When can i ever get back to that standard again? I so fear that shin splints would be back and i don't want to use injury as an excuse again.

Ignorance is my new best friend

Im supposed to work on my Q&A yesterday but apparently I've wasted the entire day because i was not in the mood for it. That's a very bad attitude but heck. & my stupid back injury ain't recovering so i think i'll go for an X-ray on wed. I can't believe this injury has caused me to be so bad tempered. I don't know why but i seem to have a hunch that it won't go away anytime soon. & if that's the case, i can forget about training and running and my dream of becoming a sprinter. Yeah this injury is indeed causing a hellll lot of trouble.

just 1 moreday to the end of most hated pw.

Languid

Recently im in a languid mood. No i've been in a languid mood for very long.. perhaps ever since the day i stepped into AJ. I mentioned recent perhaps because time is passing so swiftly that it seemed recent.

Met up with mana just now. Initially, i dont know why it seemed quite weird because we havent seen each other for so loooong.. like a month plus. I didn't like sucha feeling like nth much to talk about other than school stuff and how we miss everyone and reminiscing about the past altho we are very much comfortable with each other. But still nothing beats having a good old chat with an old friend... my 4year patrol mate. It seemed like that happened ages ago.

Reallly sick and tired of life now. I just want my back injury to recover NOW

injuries

i think this could be the year which i did not sustain any external injury from falling.. ok maybe i did. i fell on my way to the auditorium.

But i definitely broke my record for internal injuries.

When i had shin splint, i couldn't run
When i had no shin splint, i had exams, i couldn't run
When i had neither shin splint nor exams, i had a back injury and i couldn't run either.
Right now, my back injury found a new friend.- A blister on my right index finger.
Say hi.

whats next?

Odds

Once again, im going to get my back injury fixed later. I hope for some miracles.

3bombs landed on track, exploded and got blown out of proportions.
Judgments, perspectives, faults, blames and whatsoever
This is indeed a highly flawed world.
I'm not going to do anything anymore.
That's it.

Satio

This is the phone that I've probably been waiting for.
Now it's time to wait for the price to dip.

Next tuesday would be liberation day. Honestly, i do not have high hopes. Just give me a B, my only plea.

My back hasn't recovered and im at a loss. All my fitness plans thwarted and im having second thoughts of going for training. How the hell am i supposed to train with a back as screwed as this? I need to run. My muscles are starting to complain. i shall go reservoir ltr. :)

Maybe I'm a little out of my mind but im excited to organise AJC Track Camp 2009 :D

Ok. for now. Q&A & perfect my OP. C'mon kcj. lets do it.

Out with faith

Ytd we went to Breeks cafe for the first time. Food was good. :) The above is their grilled chicken. Good food makes me happy. & out with sis makes me happy too & it's definitely fun tryin' to plan a track camp together with u. Hopefully ms cai allows & our efforts wont go down the drain. On top of that, i finally watched my first movie ever since promos-- Jennifer's body.

The storyline was a lil fresher this time round since we couldnt have guessed it without much satanic knowledge. But still i didnt think it was that good because i personally dont like gore & violence. haha. I guess their X factor would be the suspense & Megan fox-- so hot. lol.

Movies to watch
- ninja assasin
- New moon
-2012
-Paranormal activity
- Avatar

today shall be no pw day. :)

The mysterious backpain

Honestly i've got no idea why i've gotten this backpain.
It's not ache. It's pain. Pain when i sneeze. Pain when i laugh. Pain when i bend down. pain when i tie shoe lace.Pain when i do yoga.

Oh Yeah i went for my first intermediate class last tues and yeah it was pretty good. Aircon & soothing music as well as caring instructor. ;)
I can't wait to learn more poses but this backpain doesnt seem to be recovering.
I-N-F-U-R-I-A-T-I-N-G :(

hurrryla hurry recover.

Creed- Rain

Can you help me out, can you lend me a hand?
It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light
I just can't figure out, how to make it right...

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more... something more...

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
With every tomorrow comes another life...

I feel it's gonna rain, for days and days
(I feel it's gonna rain)
I tried to figure out, I can't understand...
What it means... to be whole again...
Trapped between the truth and the consequence
Nothing's real, nothing's making sense...

The day this blog turns public again

may ur wishes come true...





oh man im feeling h-u-n-g-r-y.
Today was a superb day.
It's the day i completed 10k despite my back injury and it's Faith's birthday :D
I'm glad that the 2 surprises went smoothly & that she had a blast.
Oh & i met coralsea along the way. 10 000 ppl yet i still met coralsea. sweeeeeet.:)
I'm sorry that i made u walked all around with me to find my trackmates but u know what? Im really so glad to have found u! hahahaha.
& apologies to faith & mel. We promised to cross the finishing line tgt yet i lost u ppl.
A thousand apologies.

Im feeling ververy tired right now and my lower back still hurting although it's less painful already. I really hope to recover soon and resume my training.

The ugly truth stings. & as u get to know more about someone u either get drawn to or u find urself more distant to that person. I guess i've started to distant myself from many ppl this year.

I find it quite sad because firstly I really had a very good impression of you until recently. I'm not quite sure for how long since anyone could make me cry but i know those who can make me cry are those whom i cared, loved & respected. As I've mentioned before, it's a sin to make ppl around u suffer just because u're in agony. Although it's justifiable that when u're upset u show it but what ur gestures suggests really makes me start to think twice about the person whom i thought u were. Perle u're right.. in ur position, u can nvr show the weak side of urself because ur team members will definitely change their perspective of u. I understood how that could have felt but nah.. i wouldn't be like that.


im tired. really tired =/

I PASSED PROMOS

With fingers crossed, legs crossed, plenty of lucky, I passed promos.

Geog- E
Chem-B
Math-U ---> S
Econs-D---> B
GP- D

Im going to get promoted which means 1 more year of AJC & next year would be nothing less than insane. & to not waste my 2 years here, I need to mug like crap. Whether I like it or not, I must & start aceing my way through. I want to bring glory to my parents, do them proud, do myself proud and the outcome would never be like O levels again. Never. Although i'm still not sure what i want to achieve in life but at least let my short term goal pull through. I don't ever want to beg schools to accept me again... they will welcome me with arms akimbo.

My class didnt do well promos. A part of me wishes that this class could disband and perhaps i can get back to my dearest 2709 but another part of me is guilty for even harbouring such a thought. How could I be so selfish? Just because i suffer, i can't expect the rest to suffer as well. Ms Soh puts the responsibility on class leaders.. why didnt we bond the class more? In the first place, wendy made a terrible mistake by asking me to be the class leader when i didn't want to. Im now obligated to do my duty and not doing it out of passion. At least im doing my job unlike someone. i hate their attitudes. I don't wanna act as though im fine anymore but everyday i tell myself to endure. Oh fuck. 1more fucking year!
im not sure why i turned so vulgar but perhaps im one to begin with.

I neeed to build on my form but pw simply saps all my energy and kill all my brain cells. Everynight, i wld just force myself to finish the damn pw & go to sleep. As much as i abhor it, (even though it's getting slightly better), i must not give up. This is a personal challenge and i will overcome it.

The day this blog turns private

Time doesnt seem to ever get enough whenever im with 4A.
There's never a need to worry about what to say, what to do.
and it's perfectly alright to stay silent, to be a listener or just zone out.
It was a fabulous Monday. :)
With the 12 of u girls,u all blend up that rainbow above me and shoot it through my veins. :)

I went for a swim just now but i forgot to bring goggles. I had no choice but to close my eyes to swim & i've forgotten how good it felt.. immersed in the water where u dont hear any shit in this fucked-up world... if only i own the pool, it'd be perfect.
I like to spend quiet time alone sometimes.. without any stranger or friend, no pw, no incessant nagging, no wendy, no 2809, no academics, no b&n. I would like to migrate out of this hellhole one day. It's not for me. I do not like to wake up to another day of blues. I do not want to tell myself to contend with misery every single day. I dont want to lead a life of misery. I want to look forward to every single day and smile like never before. & i need to start planning my way outta here to my life of hedonism.

Once again, i'm limp with fatigue. I just wanna sit & rock with the wind.

Rainbow veins
Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone

CAKES

Some cakes to attempt :

Classic Victoria fairy cupcake
Red Velvet Cake
Chocolate Ginger cake
Gingerbreadman house

Me I seriously wonder how anyone can be so lazy.
Just like those in WallE.
I've finally met these ppl.
These ppl who misplace ur trust
Those who don't honour their words
They treat u as a push-over
I got so annoyed that I dont bother to reason with them anymore because a leopard never change its spots.
Time & time again, i trust and bury the hatchet.
Yet they don't seem to treasure it and take u for granted.
they should screw themselves for god's sake.
How i wish i dont have to be a hypocrite and face them with fake smiles every single day.
It's getting tougher to smile
How i wish i don't have to face them at all.
In my dreams perhaps.
One more month, endure.


will let me forget u. goodbye.

I envy sleeping beauty

Oh damn. i don't know why but I've been feeling really tired these days. Naps doesnt seem to suffice and sleeps can last till 12+ now. Sometimes, i don't even feel like waking up.

& Once again, i fucking lost my wallet.
The wallet i bought with my first salary. It's gone. :(
I know it's my fault so stop adding fuel to my agony.

Even though theres no need to mug now but i don't feel like doing PW either & i hate school all the same. Mdm woon came and tell us.." At this rate, you'd fail all ur pw. U all would get a U. It's your future not mine." & thats certainly the most demoralising thing u would want to hear. It's just 1 & a half more months to the real holis & training's starting next week. I cannot give up now.

Ytd & Today was sandcastle building and amazinglyy im just entranced in my own world. Piling sand pile pile pile like the rest of the world cease to exist. It didnt feel too good but not that bad either. See. Sometimes it's good to stay emotionless for a while


This is prob the first time im loading a photo of my class. Yeah here it is. The class that caused my misery & gave me a reality check. The class that made me understood how loneliness felt. The class that made me more independent and stronger. Life really ain't smooth-sailing and whenever it's bumpy, it reveals more of your own weaknesses. U feel that you're struggling because you're not well-acquainted with the situation, you're weak. At this point of time, either you give up & accomplish nothing or u stand up & overcome it. 2009 really proved to be one of the toughest time in my entire life and i want to give up. i really do. I really want to run far far away..... But often what u want doesnt mean what u can. Oh damn. just 1 more year. endure and be strong.
Heres some of my Ab campmates and some councilers.

To fellowtissuemonster: As much as we feel like giving up, we must endure and become stronger. We can be strong bases and high fliers so long as we believe. ZOVE ZOU ZERY ZUCH TOO! ZEEP ZOING! keep me updated k! ur strong base here for u anytime!

TRACK IS STARTING NEXT WEEK! IM EXHILARATED!

oh my

Holy i'm done with my part for PW like finally. Hopefully it all turns out well.. this pw grp of mine. Im so glad that theres pikachu in it. Thanks alot man.

& crap insomnia seemed to have gotten hold of me again.
& i cant help but to feel hungry.

Im pretty much determined this time round.
byebye fats. byebye lazy.
im not going to let u haunt me anymore.

The moon is shrouded by clouds

Gone were the days of freedom, doing pointless stuff without guilt.
Promos may have ended but PW starts creeping in. Im supposed to have done my part in the afternoon but I've procrastinated until now.
Bleh. Whatever. There's nothing wrong to take a break.. I deserved it.

More birthdays coming up & i gotta keep my brain juice flowing & hands busy.

I will remember

∞ BC KCJ ♥ AJCTRACK " failure gave me strength and pain was my motivation"-MJ says (2:14 AM):

actuallly
it all doesnt make sense

[leinahtan] because jack jumped over the candlestick says (2:15 AM):

?

∞ BC KCJ ♥ AJCTRACK " failure gave me strength and pain was my motivation"-MJ says (2:15 AM):

i didnt know why i continued to run despite knowing im prone to such injuries
i just wanted to
so much so that
i spent so much money on it
on new shoes on physio
it all doesnt make sense
i could have just stopped

[leinahtan] because jack jumped over the candlestick says (2:16 AM):

of course it doesnt
its not supposed to make any sense
not to anyone who doesnt know what its like to push for all your worth
not to anyone who doesnt have the burning desire to compete and to win
not to anyone who just backs his ass down instead of standing up and saying "im better than you"
not to anyone who just gives up despite the unsurmountable odds stacked against him

For that 1s to be qualified as a sprinter.
ENDURE EXPLORE EXCEL

"Not only have u lost a teammate, but you also lost your momentum. Problem is, are u able to get back on your feet?"

I just watched survivor Samoa and this was the last sentence Jeff Probst said to Galu, the team that had won 4 straight immunity challenge but lost the latest one.

This made me dwell abit on--- what if i were to fail promos? Am i able to get back on my feet? I would say i would eventually but im not quite sure how long it would take though.
Miracles do happen for GP like how it did during mids... so yeah im expecting more unexpected stuff to come along too. Expecting does not equate able to handle the consequences though. So im keeping my fingeres crossed. XXXXX

Promos has ended & im glad that I had weathered through the hurricane & i would let u know if i had made it thru the rain next wed. A month of intense PW wld be coming up & for that A grade, i would put in my all. Initially, I thought i would be happy with a B but since i'm gonna do it, i would want the best possible outcome. Way to go!

Alright. Now time for a decent update.

September began with SiHui's birthday. Honestly speaking, shes the most retarded woman I've ever met but she's freaking damn hilarious so yeah keep that retarded flame burning baby!

AHA! CAUGHT YA! I rmbed Pramash saying," You don't always get to see a treble clef & molecules together ok" & this is what i meant. When trebleclef reacts with some molecule.. u'll really get the most retarded concoction on earth- in this case the
MOST LETHAL & INTOXICATING RETARDED COUPLE!

& he decided to bake for her & luckily he was smart enough to engage our help.. if not the cake would have exploded in the oven with 3tablespoons of baking soda. This brings us to the point- More isn't always good.

A toast to our success! Presenting to you the idiot-proof chocolate cake! Ladies & gentlemen, a round of applause please!

Then it was dearest Mana's birthday. Im so glad to see her smile & crooked teeth again! & i definitely can't wait to go kbox with BC soon! Yeah im really glad that all of us continued putting BC before our names on msn. We may have gone in separate ways but i know theres this part in us that still links us tgt- that special bond.. of all ppl we were the 13 who formed AHSGGSEC42008. I love us & I will never forget all that we've shared.

This was last year

& Yes continue to make wishes cause one day.. u'll make them come true! ;DHAHA. I love being with minmin!

& Then it's minmin's birthday! Oh man. It was a hilarious night! I'll elaborate more on that when i have peeeeeeeektures! wahahahahha! MADMIN WASNT ONLY MAD BUT SEXY TOO! WAHAHAHAHA

& now i will convince u that a QQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQQ can get very looooooooooooooooong.

Do u think this is a long queue? Maybe not.

How about this??
What about this?

Well if they don't look too long to you.. what if i were to tell u these queues are not segmented but joined? & what if i were to tell u they are just 1/4 of the queue & not the full one? & what if i were to tell u I was in the queue.. there was 500people in this queue and im the 413th person in it. I waited for 6hours. Are u convinced that this is indeed a very long queue now?

Heres what happened:
2 girls skipped ahem because they wanted to get tortured, & the reason why one of them wanted to get tortured is because she finds it meaningful to get tortured on her birthday. Due to the fact that they missed the deadline to sign up for the torture online, they had one last chance to get tortured... to be the first 500 to reach that place & register for it. And who knew? Before u apply for the torture, u gotta get tortured first. Moral of the story.

we __ school to torture ourselves to apply for " torture" & ultimately spent more time applying to be tortured than the torture we applied for.

--end of september--

Wake me up when september ends....

& this was taken today. & shopping really saps all my energy... where have the stamina gone to? Nevertheless, it was fun shopping with faithiee sis! hahahaha!

One day, I'll find that shoe thats meant for me. The shoe where i can land properly on the balls of my feet & not getting shin splint.

Last of alll


This is a red shirt that represents me

Faith: why are there 2 'i's?
Me: because i have 2 eyes?
Faith: why are there two thumbs?
Me: because i am too nice! hahahaaahahaahahah

un plus de jour à la liberté!

i cant wait for tmr!
I can't wait to run !
shoo flu shoo!

the worst had ended

Frankly speaking i have no idea what im doing here. Im supposed to be studying chem at 6 but overslept and now i havent started my final stage of revision.

ok i can't be getting restless now. focusfocus.
Anyway, GEOG & ECONS ARE OVER! OMG! Im appalled how much i have actually managed to cramp into my pea brain and how much I've written today. It's crazily insaneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'll just hope i pass econs because if i don't, I'll be the biggest fool on earth. I think i totally screwed GP but yeah i'll have some faith that i might scrape a sub-pass.

I'll put in my all for chem. Let's Jump!

I NEED TO RECOVER

sore throat & blocked nose is killing me.
I hate econs but i need to bloody pass.
endure. 7moredays.

After running

running works wonders.
running+ eagle balm applied on my head create miracles.

yesyes focus :D

it's piling

8 more days to freedom.
Crap. I cant believe that im having flu & sorethroat now.
& for some reason i feel that theres something constantly piling above my head, suppressing me down.

perhaps i should go for a run.. cant stand this sluggish body anymore.

RESTLESS

oh crap. im feeling very very restless now.

it's time to end and move on.
adios.